Hi Brett, read through this post and pondered your thoughts and reflected upon my own journey (of which I have been doing a lot of lately) and the journey that life is and how we walk it and leave our footprints. We all need more money, the costs of just existing have blown out in this country but so has our expectation of what we require in life and this further influenced by societal pressures. Pheeww I’m exhausted already. You already have the greatest thing in your life (besides family), the knowing that you make a difference, so many people walk this planet without leaving a mark, from birth to death an existence wiped away with a breath of wind and a small numerical time as if they had never been. You are so blessed to have the understanding and knowing that what you do and have done is going to continue to make it’s mark on people and this little planet.
Worth way more than any monetary value however I do understand self worth doesn’t pay the bills.
As we all know with all things “we only get out what we put in” but when we are feeling a little lost along the journey it makes it very difficult to see the opportunities or direction we must steer. What ever you choose to do you already know the recipe. You have to love doing it, you need to be good at it or have the inclination to gain the skills to be good at it and it needs to bring you self worth. Based on this premise, the coffee industry doesn’t sound like it fits your requirements. Being good at what you are doing in your own environment and enjoying it is a far different world than that of the Café owner/roaster. From my own journey I have invested a great deal of money and time for very little return thus far, however I am passionate about the experience and am committed to investing a huge amount of time and continuing the learning to steer myself onto that pathway that drives me. What’s driving you Brett? What brings you an excitement and a desire to pursue, to gain mastery of? It’s these things when we discover them that bring us back from just existing in the day to day and inspire us to do and be more than what we are or to concede to where we are at.
Don’t retire to your shed Brett, go back there with a purpose and a passion for your lapidary, let that reflect in your work, let people feel that passion when they hold one of your designs because you’ve invested yourself into that piece. Get a market stall. Sell on ebay, visit a local well being/spiritual shop ask them to take your pieces on consignment. The selling will be the easy part once you decide to invest yourself into the process. Never be smug and I am sure that’s not part of who you are anyway, so don’t even put it out there, always represent yourself and do what you do with the best intention. Your coffee journey is slowing, or have you just found a comfort in what you are doing or is it necessary so you can put time into those other things that have come into your world. There is always a greater reason than what first appears.
Help? Seems more like you just need to recognise all that you already have and what you offer to those that walk alongside you. Just ask for what you need in life and then continue along that path, being the best you can be and thankful for the opportunity.
Your on track Brett, hang in there.